What just happened?

Im feeling a bit overwhelmed right now........
But i have to count blessings tomorrow will be my blog day to talk bout the details.  Im not going to lie Im feel like this is a weird dream that has left me with a scar and stiff neck.......   Ok so now we are on mend mode and I'm learning the art of doing nothing today was my 2nd day at it.....   It went ok....

Im happy for what has happened
and scared for the future

ughhhhh......  turmoil but tomorrow will be a better day.

Life is really weird......

Home from the hospital, Robert was discharged today.

Now that he's home, he is need of groceries and vitamins:

Items, such as:
blueberries, oatmeal, eggs, Vitamin B-6 & B-12, Vitamin E, Vitamin D and Zinc, spinach, leafy vegetables, lettuce, asparagus, lentils, broccoli, citrus fruits, fruits, beets, beans, avocados, sweet potatotes, quinoa, brown rice, chicken, turkey, non-fat milk, greek yogurt, green tea, purified water,

"Healing With Whole Foods" - a book that teaches how to eat healthy

Anything help/item is so greatly appreciated :)

Robert is in Room 4D at SF General: 1001 Potrero Ave, San Francisco, CA 94110. Visiting hours are 11A - 8P.

Surgery took 12 hours, but Robert is doing well and resting today.

After an all-day surgery, we have received news that Robert's surgery was a success and he is in stable conditions.

Details to follow on visiting hours and location. Thank you for all the support and love!!

May 1st 2014

Time for surgey lfe is going to change in less than 3 hours...... 

Dear Old Robert 
Thank you for everything you provided for me we came into this world to be part of this experience that made us connect with the world and all the situations that it gave us. The best part was knowing that you were always there you did thing magically and mysteriously automatically and I tried to take care of you as best as I knew. I loved you with all my heart and I hope that the universe guides your energy back into the infinite love. Thank You Thank You for a wonderful 33 years of being together. I will miss you and think fondly of you..... You are beautiful you are wonderful you are a me...

Dear New Robert
You are about to be born May 1st 2014, I wait for you in a few hours into the future. I ask the universe to guide you to me with Love strength and courage and wisdom. May we be together in health peace and compassion. May our adventures that we will begin be ones that make me into the person that i was put on this world to be realized. I ask that you stay strong and overcome any obstacle that will lay in our path. I will respect love and cherish you as you will now be my new vessel. May the universe guide us into a long life into the future and may we continue to set coarse on a life that inspires others and use art as a way of showing the world of the new perspective that you will bring with you. I am excited and I am ready......

Hopefully this dream will be a wondrous dream that I wake up from into a new day. Today will be the most difficult passage i have faced in 33 solar revolutions. I prepared as much as I could.... I wait for the sun to rise and bless this day for me.... and may the moon guide me into tomorrow.... Surrounded and protected with love from my Mother brother and friends.....

Thank you.....
Love always

My life changes forever tomorrow.....

Its about 11:23 pm and in a few hours Life will change forever.  Surgery is just a few hours away.  What am I feeling?  Im laying in bed listening to some music and thinking of how the 33 years of my life have added up...  I am calm and quiet in the dark of my room....  I gave my all to the day. I lived like if today was the last day.  So much to think about...  fighting sleep.......  still have to pack pay bills and all I want to say is Fuck This......


Many things made me Happy Today.....